Saudade (singular) or saudades (plural) is a Portuguese and Galician word for a feeling of nostalgic longing for something or someone that one was fond of and which is lost. It often carries a fatalist tone and a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might really never return.
Saudade has been described as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist … a turning towards the past or towards the future”. A stronger form of saudade may be felt towards people and things whose whereabouts are unknown, such as a lost lover, or a family member who has gone missing. It may also be translated as a deep longing or yearning for something which does not exist or is unattainable.
Saudade was once described as “the love that remains” or “the love that stays” after someone is gone.
“I feel so much better now, so much stronger, but not quite, so much funner now, not quite. it’s so dirty now and all bloody now, what’s the point? something new to enjoy now, brief respite.
I imagine you know what this is about now. A rather bleak ending, though appropriate, I suppose. And so it is. The End.”
The last words written for me in a book given to me on my 22nd birthday
(via tygertherapy)
